Tuesday, October 03, 2006
currently im down wif flu n fever.. hahha...
i jus reached hm from sch...
long time didnt sick le... nw feelin damn terrible..
hahah... but im ok coz im strong...
i had already promise myself tt the moment i recover from my sickly condition, i will forget abt him totally... its a deal!!!
let this b the last entry abt mi tokin abt my first love...
i miss him .. haaha...
bein wif mi is a torture to him ...
i noe i shouldnt hold on... i should let go n face the reality...
im tryin i really m...its very hard indeed...
i love him so i must let go..
let him find some 1 he really love...
i wn him to b happy ...
mian qiang shi mei you xin fu de...
although sometimes i hate him of y his feelin fade off so dame fast... where r those promises he gave mi... but nw it means nth anymore... i have tried to retrieve back him n wnna b hugged by him again but no reply means tt he don wan .. perhaps he don love mi anymore... hahah...to him,we r less den friend ba...
mayb all causes is due to me... i apologise...
from this unsuccessful first love, i gt to learn tt there nth call forever!!! there no forever love , no forever feelin... ppl tend to lose their feelin when time goes by... cant i have forever love? haha...
mayb there oso no forever friends...
1 of my friend told mi tt in a r/s , the girl is the lock while the guy is the key..
but sad to say tt im special in 1 way, im the lock!!! i don wan to but no choice...
he oso told mi tt i will have countless r/s .. but i don wan... all i wan is only 1 soulmate...
y countless r/s? im nt pretty, nt gd at all... all i noe is to act cute (tt wad some of my friend said to mi b4)... ACBC... hahaha...
mayb i n him r really nt meant to b together... hhahaa...
ya i noe tt there will b som1 better up there.. this is also wad i always tell my friends...
but its easy to say but difficult to do... hahaha... shall i put my feelin of him deep inside my heart n never b shown ... if we really gt tt yuan fen, den say lo...
nw feelin so terrible... bon voyage to my first love... as wad i promise this will b my last entry tokin abt him...
i must recover from everything n face wad awaitin mi...
life is so unpredictable.. who noes i may die in the next moment.. hahha...
don worry my friends... im really ok...
end here...
i still miss my last
romance ;
