My nAme:suwen
mY aGe:18 born on march 20 . Currently studyin @ private institute(ftc) to achieve ACCA. i love eatin(confirm gain weight lo) , singing(terrible vocal) n makin friends. i love 5N1'o5(they just rockz) . i love my family n friends n seasons(they r always der 4 mi). i hate yam n myself .i hate ppl tryin to avoid mi.

WISH ONE: gain ACCA passed
WISH TWO: 'jian fei chen gong'
WISH THREE: meet my prince charming

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*liJING
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i jus reach hm.. so tired.. tml starts schoolin le.. so sian.. didnt enjoy much in my 2 days holiday... so busy sia... hahaa...
so wad i did today? in the morning i so sleepy sia.. so lazy to wake up.. den i pulled myself up n go mq hse to collect those trch day card... den i take cab down to meet st,sg,fl n linlin... hhaa.. i was late ma.. so no choice... need to use $ to buy time.. haha..
den the om chase us out bcoz no dye hair.. haha.. but mrs sng actually walk out n meet us... so touched.. gaga...love mrs sng... den i pass all those cards to her n ask her help mi pass to those other tchers.. haha...
den i n mj actually went into sch again to grab a plate of chicken rice.. haha... saw lots of familier faces ... but all askin mi how was i n jj.... y must ask mi? haha... den i smile at dem n say break le lo.. haha... so tupid.. hhaa.. erm... den we went to eat prata... superd.. hahaa

den meet jk to play pool... yeah.. i finally noe how to play le... but still beginer lo.. haha.. yuan n jk teach mi hw to play.. so thank you wor.. haha... so happy.. haha...den we went to popular n recall all our primary sch knowledge.. wahhaaha...den meet alvin to tok... den meet fl n jing who were watchin ice hocky de match... haha... den so tired lo.. haha...

oya.. to all those who r my friend, never want o try to avoid mi leh... if nt i will hate u de n rmb u for life... haha...
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boa de waist line will b my next taget in life.. hehe

i still miss my last romance ;

today suppose to wake up @ 8.30am but i wake up @ 9.30am.. haha...suppose to meet mq at 10am but due to som1 overslept so we meet at 11am... suppose to meet alvin at 11am but he say nt feelin well so called off... haha...

i meet mq at 11.15 at jp ... den we went to popular to purchase ingredients for the cards 4 trchers' day... hhaa... spent abt 8 bucks ba.. haha... den we head to NUS to meet ying quan .. haha
i n mq become 5hrs de NUS student lo.. hahaa..basically the environment there nt bad lo.. haha.. this is bad lo.. it let mi rethink my path studyin private institute again.. haiz... should i go for 2007 de poly intake? haha.. STRESS LA.. haha...

o ya.. in NUS, i n mq eat watermelon, papaya, honeydew, "chay kwo tye"(don noe how to spell la) , macaroni n drink apple juice.. haha... the food there is nice n nt tad very expensive lo.. hhaa... its a gd place to hang out.. haha... lookin 4ward to the next trip to NTU.. haha...

den went jp to look 4 job.. haha...before leavin jp, i bought a green nail polish n mq bought a white 1.. hahaa..hmm... basically i jus reach hm.. haa.. so sianz.. haha... hope tad tml will b better.. haha..u noe wad i can b a great writer wor.. haha.. nw let mi tell u abt love story.. haha

will 'he' miss mi? do 'he' still miss me?still love me? actually i don noe whether i still love him.. those memory seems to fade off gradually... is it gd or bad? y some guys tend to forget abt their once love in such a fast moment? wont they regret? y cant their pr3s3nt their weakness sometime? y they wan to act strong n have those heck care attitude? y some girls tend to never give up their ex lover? dont they find it a torture?y must i still show him tad i love him?y he willin to put the pic of he n another girl in his dp n never i n him?y i feel sad when i saw tad dp of his? y arent there 4eva love? y cant lover face all obstacles together? y must there a break? will we have future still?wad will his future b like? will he b happy n xinfu? will i find my mr prince?will i b happy still without him? wad will my future b like?

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today damn terrible sia...
forget to bring my hp out ...
den i only gt 64 for my IMC...
i so angry n sad lo...
i didnt reach my 80% expectation...
wanna cry la... sob....
no shoulder 4 me to cry on...
wanna jump buildin le la...
my paper so many theory qns lo...
computer de somemore...
i so ANGRY...
hope tad can gt the paper from khyron on friday..
wanna find out where n which qns i wrong..
i wan kill people le la...
ANGRY!!

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erm... wake up @ ard 9 ..
feelin dame tired n moody... haha
den recap some of those notes 4 my afternoon de exam...
leave my hse @ 11 n reach tanjiong pagar @ 12+..
i walk here n there searchin 4 tad stupid buildin (international plaza)..
at last i found tad stupid plaza... den liu ye come n fetch mi to bk.. haha...
wad a singaporean m i? road idiot sia... haha... next time must find a road smart de husbandy.. haha... huiying was so damy high sia... we all laugh till siao.. hahaa

wa lao!! i gt only 84 for my RFT paper... so sad.. didnt reach my 90% expeactation... sob!!
hope tml de pp i can score... but costin leh.. hard wor... i don even hav confident i can pass sia...
god bless mi la... haha...gd luck for my tml de pp.. haha

i miss him ... haha...
like wad i say b4 , i love him ... i don need to b attached wif him to show i love him...
bein wif mi, he feel miserable... so hope tad he faster find 1 gal to control him ... hope he xin fu..
as 4 mi, i enjoy bein single.. hhaha...
smile always is my motto.. haha..
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hihi.. wow.. i so tired sia.. yst tok on phone wif st until 5 plus.. omg... den wake up at 9 to study.. i gt no enough slp wor... haha... but gt to noe som1 interested in my dear st.. i was so happy.. haha... let nature take its action ba.. haha.. but i gt no enough slp leh.. haha

saw alvin jiejie yst when i on my way hm.. haa.. wa lao.. he say i look like lobster.. haha.. coz my face was damy red aft wed de sun tanning session.. haha... so happy tad i finally gt tanned.. haha... hope the tanned effect wont breach.. haha...

hmm... today i study study study.. hhaa... so guai wor.. haha... but i think nth much go in.. haha... die le la... who to score? haiz... hhaa

oya.. i rejected alex n jinwei le.. but they still pestering mi.. sianz... i den decided nt to ans their call .. m i bad? haha.. heck care la.. who ask mi fall in love wif him .. haha... although we arent together , i can still love him by my means ma.. haha... love is nt bein wif him but watchin him happy .. haha..

i miss him as usual but i gt no more negative thought .. haha.. negative thought will only make us miserable... so b happy.. haha
i find tad bein wif him i can always b myself n nt som1 who lamin wif all my friends.. haha...
really hope we still gt a CHANCE of HOPE.!! but i don dare to ask him.. haha... hope he read this n tell mi his ans!!... but no matter wad i will still b der 4 him de lo... nd nt feel pressure.. haha

lalalala.. so sianz.. haha... ltr havin pizza n resume to my studies again.. sianzation sia...

oya.. friends of mine... tnx 4 bein there.. i feel so fortunate.. haha... i recover from everything le... really i am.. so MUACKZ!! haha..
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sorry ... i should nt type so many negative thought here... i m so sorry....
i hurt him n some of my friends tru this tupid negative blog entry...
so sorry..
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today is the day i think the most... haha... i miss him ... hahaha.. stupid mi rit? haha... i tot i had fogotten abt him but im wrong.. dame wrong... i still miss him very much but on the other hand, i hate him oso... hahaha... confusin rit? hahaha...i miss his heartbeat!!

this morning i , st,fl,sg n yl go complex... i drank lots of chlorine water.. hhahaa... shack!! long time never swim le so i forgotten how to swim... den ard 12 , long arrived n joined us... haha..
den we all go 400+ eat lo.. hhaha... now we all at fl hse...
don noe y.. i feel sad... hahha... mayb due to him ba... no mood to study.. haha...

i realise something... he already part of my life le... how? how can i pluck him out of my life??
since 13 aug, my day is so meaningless... no motivation to carry on my life.. shack!!
i so tired of livin in this world le... i no more want to go into r/s le... i lost my heart totally... haha.. i noe tad is stupid but i cant do anything ma... don worry.. i wont suicide de la..tad is nt my style.. i jus find no target in life le... wad i noe is tad miss him n love him is a torture to him... nt only so, i m oso sufferin.... in the very 1st place.. i shldnt go into this r/s.. hahah...so i let go of him ... but i damely sad... i don noe y.. i don feel like cryin..i cant cry... haha...

wad true love really is? is it sufferin n unable/never b together 1314? hahha...
how i hope i can love him less but i fall into it le... haha...sad.. haha..will i n him b together again? stupid qns indeed...the ans is never rit?... hahha...

m i really nt a gd gf? m i really very fan? m i a loner? i don noe... no 1 can tell mi.. haha.. i jus noe tad i tend to contributed 2 much in r/s.. haha.. tads terrible..

meaningless life + stress in studies+ no more lookin toward love = suwen
haha... hope he will happy n xinfu...
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jus nw i saw jj online... his dp wif another gal... my heart swollen.. haha.. a sad feelin... but still hope tad he can b less busy n find a more suitable gal to b wif... best wishes 4 him...

i feel terrible but i cant do anything.. he n i no more attached... he gt world of his own n i gt mine wif stalker everywhere... hhaha.... i m really ok... its a matter of time to recover those wound... all i hope is tad he will b happy as usual .. he will taste xinfu... best wishes 4 him...

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i grew up le...
last time i was too obsesse in my r/s le...
i should let go if i love him.. am i rit?
haha... things r weird.. there nth perfect in this cruel world...
all i hope is tad he will b xinfu...
tads enough.. contented..

as for all those stalker.. i told them i nt interested in them le.. but they still pesterin non-stop.. so heck care... i gt no time for them.. haha

all my friends r so gd sia.. they look aft mi n prevent mi from cryin.. i guess so.. haha.. tnx my friends.. ur r great.. haha

today goin to mug .. hahah..
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things r gettin out of my control... in this shortly 1 mth +... i m nt happy at all.... fate is toyin mi... i hate everything all of a sudden.... i hate myself...

firstly, my bf break up wif mi!!! this make mi double sad .... is it tad i m nt a gd gf? is it tad there nth call 4eva love?? is it tad our feel fade off??/ i don noe.. i feel very very lost...

secondly, alex seems like a gd guy but i feel nth abt him... nth at all... he call mi every nit... but the more he call, the more i feel pissed off... i gettin to hate him... but this make mi such a terrible person.... pls don let mi hate u-alex.... cant we b friend?? i don wan go into any r/s.. cant i??tad negative guy-kuan bing is pesterin mi .. i hate it damely... pls leave mi alone... i don nd u guys to light up my life....i don wan to hate u ppl.... leave mi alone...

lastly, my sch life ... i oso don noe how to describe... exam comin but i gt no mood to prepare... sian...shack....

i hate myself!!
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erm.. hav 'he' forgotten abt mi?? have i forgotten abt 'he'??
i don noe actually...i don noe how i m feelin nw?!wad i noe is tad i miss the 'him' in 2005..

i don noe wad i really want... on tue i cry when i heard songs tad remind mi of him... but i told fl tad i ok.. but m i?
nw.. i was so sotong... i m tired... feel like goin coma 4 eva...

these few days... alex called mi every moment/ nit when he free....but he was in camp.. y he so despo n free??
he ask mi lots of time to b his gf but i rejected... i feel bad...very bad..
ppl say he a stalker but he give mi a feel tad he really wan a serious r/s nw.... but i really don noe...
ya.. i admit... from the countless conversation, i feel tad he a gd guy... but i cant confirm if i m rit... i m scared... i m uncertain abt my feel... i scared of enterin into a nw r/s tad may hurt mi once again....
mayb i meetin him 4 movie this comin fri.. but i gt fear.. i m scared...
i don noe wad i wan...?!

nt oni him.. yc oso gave mi lots of motivation to move on... tnx yc... he a gd buddy...
all my friends.. tnx lots... love u ppl...
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erm.. today mummy ask mi abt i n jj.. i tell her.. we break le.. she ask y? how u wan mi to reply??( i oso don hope this to happen ma)..she ask in the first place y steady? how u wan mi to reply? i control myself from cryin... i don wan dem to worry abt mi....

haha... no matter wad.. i still love him ... he is my true love...
true love= miserable n wanna he o she to b happy always...
i wanna him to b happy... hope he can find 1 gal soon...

true love doesnt mean tad 2 ppl mus b together...
for example, i understand him but donnoe y i still inject those miserable to him...
i m nt a gd gf indeed...
i feel so sorry...
mayb i will stand 1 side, seein he wif the gal he love being happy n xin fu... tad is enough le...
hope we 2 will b friend .. real friend.. don try to avoid mi...
nw, my heart still ach... i nd time to settle my emotion...

today my mock didnt score up to my expectation.. but i will try harder 4 the actual exam de..
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i n jj r officially break le.... haha.. i cry ... our story finally end le... haha..
yaya.. i cry... but this time the feelin is different.. haha... we r friend nw.. haha
forever friend.. haha...

i really ok... feel so ok... alex comforted mi... he so gd... tnx alex...

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wad a terrible n stress n sianz week.. haha
i hate thur n fri... so busy lo.. never call mi on this 2 days.. haha
erm.... basically tnx to st for introducin alex to mi... he is 22 ...
yst we tok on phone 4 abt 2 hr plus until i cant tahan... shack.. haha...
but he sound nt bad lo... haha...tnx st anyway.. haha

u noe wad.. never try to avoid mi if u all hav thought of... coz i mayb will hate u de...
i never bein avoid b4 n nw i noe this feelin is sux... som1 told mi abt som1 avoidin mi n nw i m fumin sia... so HOT1!! haha
ppl , y couple once break cant even b friend? this is so wth...
i hate it man...

tml i goin to the tupid orientation.. sianz... haha.. den meetin pf n jx ... haha...
hope i wont ruin any1 de nites...
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hmm... today is our 41st national day... singapore rulz.. hahah
erm... these few days i study study study to prevent myself from thinkin lots n forget abt the past... i wanna to write a new chapter of my life.... i hate draggin... it make me suffer like hell.. hehehe...
no matter wad i really enjoy those moment occur in yr 2005.... like wad xy said... yr 2005 was a memorable yr.... hahaha..... i tryin my very best to pull myself out of tad forest n tryin to accept other forest which can cling mi on... but i think it may b hard coz i m a bad gf... hahaa.... should i say fan... haha....

1 day = decades... hhaa.... tryin all means to gt back to the life tad belong only to myself... haha....
tryin to study all i can everyday to make myself strong... haha.... will i start to hate chalet?? i don noe... chalet means memory of somebody.. hahha... so don wantin to recall but i cant help it if there a nd to go... haha...

ppl say when it comes to love... 1 must b selfish.. but i always cant b 1... i don noe y? i jus cant make myself selfish ... i jus wan a fair n sq de r/s...

how i hope everlastin de r/s... i tot i found him but he havent found his... haha... cant my life b more simple? i never ask 4 more but wad i gt is such a complicated life....
mayb i sholdnt fall into so deeply 4 my nxt r/s... i must really control my feel...

i told fl must control our feel but i realise tad.. by sayin its easy bt nt action...
okok.. i go buried myself wif books le.
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today i very happy... daddy allow mi go watch fireworks.. so happy sia.. haha...
early in the morning, quarrel wif fl abt the time to meet.. so angry.. terrible mood indeed..
early in the afternoon, i go study wif angelyne n mq... so tired... haha..
den meet jing n alvin n oso jing de 3 friends... i forget their name le.. sorry..haha...
when we reach there... we find a place to sit... 1 of jing de friend so funny de.. haha.. we play zong ji mi ma... haha.. so fun... haha... fl n her friend sit at the other side tokin non-stop de.. haha..

the fireworks flew n its so beautiful.... i love it man... haha... may some1 propose mi under such good atmosphere.. hhahaa...

jing they all headin to clarke... where i don feel like goin ... i join pf them hm instead.... her dad drove us hm... n i oso gt to noe 1 of pf friend..she is a darin gal but a nice friend to noe... haha...

today although nt feelin well.. taken panadol but i still enjoy very much...
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i didnt keep my promise n im back nw.... sorry ppl..

erm.. today i wanna say tad tnx to all for bein wif mi this 6 mths...
i noe durin this 6 mths... i m so irreasonable n ignorant.... i did lots of thingy to attract attention... its stupid indeed... i finally realise how fan i m this 6 mths... sorry n tnx to all...

basically i didnt go poly n have certain stress inside mi ... n i m scared of losin my love n my friends.. haha... tad nt mi.. i hate tad 6mth de sw... she is an idiot... haha.. lets forget abt this inporpular de stupid sw...

here.. i sincerely wanna say sorry to my jj... sorry dear of bein so fan when u r damn busy... i noe i say b4 i love u bcoz of ur seriousness n i nearly forget abt it... i look back to those sms u have sent mi last yr... n i realise tad tad time i love u less n accept u ... u try all means to conquer my little heart.. u r so great!! u already spent 1 whole yr wif mi ... tads 1 yr i enjoy very much.. tnx baby....i will wait n enjoy everymoment wif u till 1 day i fail to conquer ur heart... currently i love u but both of us love our studies more.. isnt it? lets study hard n love hard... i sure i will conquer ur heart like wad u did last yr.. i will try ... but if u really don love mi den its really ok.. we can b the bestest friend eva..

to mr anonymous... u noe wad? i gt a feel u r jj ...haha.. u denied .. nvm den... tnx for taggin mi! sorry 4 bein mean ... tad time i havin a terrible mood... btw... who r u? i noe u noe mi de... nice to noe u but can u tell mi ur name?

to my dear friends... i love u all.. u all r great n tnx.. i m ok.. really ok... i m back.. the old friendly sw r back!!
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