My nAme:suwen mY aGe:18 born on march 20 . Currently studyin @ private institute(ftc) to achieve ACCA.
i love eatin(confirm gain weight lo) , singing(terrible vocal) n makin friends. i love 5N1'o5(they just rockz) .
i love my family n friends n seasons(they r always der 4 mi).
i hate yam n myself .i hate ppl tryin to avoid mi.
...THE
NEXT ROMANCE
WISH ONE: gain ACCA passed
WISH TWO: 'jian fei chen gong'
WISH THREE: meet my prince charming
i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you i hate u i hate you to the core.....
i still miss my last
romance ;
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
today very sianz sia... hahaha.. no 1 jio mi out.. sob... even when my friend is sad i oso don noe lo... sob... hope all my friends will b great n if nt i will always b their gd listener.. haha... tell u a secret i still left alot assignment nt yet done... opps! die le la... but too many le ma... hahaha...
frankly speakin, today i miss him again but forget abt it lo... hahaa...in return he wont ...hahah when i become so bad? hahaha.. just jkin la... hahhaa.. we will b friend after some yrs pass... haaha...
to lyc: lao tiko, i read ur blog...don hide ur feelin inside ur hear if possible... it will accumulate n make u feel more worse ... if possible find 1 close friend to empty ur negative thoughts... if u don feel like findin som1 close den find som1 nt close @ all to empty ur thoughts ... once i promise u to let u c the true mi n nw i m who i was... wad abt u? i oso hope to c the real lyc n noe u more... hope tt u allow mi knowin u more ... hehe... happy is the power of life ... hope u gt the chance to read this msg 4 u.. btw u noe wad ur blog no tagbox so i mus type here.. hehehe...
ok, enough of my nonsence... haha... the class bbq is on sat... hahah... so tired... wil i enjoy there? hahaa.. doubt mi!! hope everything will b fine den... hahah k la.. end here...
i still miss my last
romance ;
Monday, September 25, 2006
wads enough is enough!! wads OVER is OVER!!! i don wan to hide myself le... so tirin ... he wanna forget mi so let it b... i oso will forget him de... i will find som1 better den him... although we gt many favourable memories in jvs.. once i try to gt back wad i lost... no reply means wad?? avoid? haha stupid la... all so stupidish.... childish is tt word... if u think i m very fan, still thinkin abt u .. let mi tell u.. ya.. i m very stupid... don treasure den fine.. forget abt it man...
today i did my hw at ice skatin der to wait 4 jing... hahaa.. i feel cold but numb.. haha.. den fl n st n mq oso turned up... we have dinner at kobayashi again.. hahha... nicy lo.. haha hmmm... tts all 4 today... end here!!
i still miss my last
romance ;
nw my friend is angry abt mi .. she msg mi n woke mi up... u think u r angry n im nt har?.... u angry bcoz i didnt go... u say i didnt keep my word.. but hw? i m jus cant make it n nt i don wan ma...don make mi sound so irresponsible can? i tot she the friend who understands mi the most but nw i doubted... pls la.. ur havin holiday but im nt.. my sch work already make mi dame busy cant breathe le.. ok.. fine u wan mi go den i go lo... happy?
u say i have changed.. changed to some1 who flirts , act happy n som1 who r nt affected by anything.... y u say i flirt? i don noe but let mi tell u im nt... act happy? i hate those grey moment... so cant i b happy...? i happy den all my friends will b happy ma... cant i? unaffected? hw u noe im nt? i m... i wanna cry but there no tears 4 mi to cry.... don noe when i lost all my emotions le... yyy??? y u wanna say i changed? y r u the 1 who say tt? i hate it when u r the 1 who tellin mi tt... u r the friend i most trusted n bein wif u i can really b who i really was ... nw.. u say i changed... its really hurt....
ya..abt tt break.. i m terribily sad... infront of u at kbox i cried ... but after tt i warn myself nt to cry anymore.... i tryin my best to forget abt him ... he once i confirmed of bein my future husband n nt bf... nw we r friends mayb lesser.... tt feelin is bad... i hate negative thoughts.. i hate it ....
i didnt change @ all... if gt i jus act to b happy... cant i? ur everyword make mi very very sad.... angry oso... end here...
i still miss my last
romance ;
Sunday, September 24, 2006
i don noe wads wrong with my habit... wad i do is eat eat eat n eat... hahaha.... jus came back from my grandparent hse.... jus ate my fav crabbie n prawnie.. haha.. so happy.. love my grand....hahhhaha... so full... hahahaha... fattie... end here...
i still miss my last
romance ;
Saturday, September 23, 2006
jus nw i review to all the testi in friendster tt all my friends gave mi... ya.. i m a cheerful gal... 'he' say wanna b wif me 1314...' he' say will treasure mi... 'he' say i understandin.... n i cried.... y arent i understandin when 'he' dame busy?? nw den i noe our breakage to due to my negative thoughts n so very nt understandin when 'he' is damy busy... yuan lei i have nt forgotten abt him.... ha ha... i can only say i m the destroyer of our r/s.... why there is a sudden change in mi? why cant 'he' bear wif mi for sometime? i m jus very down at tt moment ma...
there is no pts to regret nw even i m regretin.... 'he' don love mi don treasure mi le.. i m nth to 'him', mayb jus a fly in his life.... i m back to who i m but 'he' nt by my side anymore.... mayb i shldnt review back to those testi tt flashes back all memories....
i still miss my last
romance ;
yst i overslept, as a result spent 16 dollar to take cab down to ftc... omg.... heartbroken.... den after sch, went to wheel lock place de sakae to buffet to celebrate maxi de bday... there r a total of 8 persons n we all together ate 70 plates of sushi n a bowl of udon each.... bloated lo... hahha.... den still gt cake ... siao ar.. hahah.... we have lots of fun der but i realise tt i n maxi look close but we r nt really close at all... hhaha.... among tt gang , i n mina de friendship more close lo.. follow by ye... hahah... but y? 2 singaporean nt close.. hahaa... n we r closer to those foreigner...hahaha.... den we walk all the way to douby gaut to digest wadever we consumed.. haha...maxi have a bouq of flower from her bf... thinkin back why i don hav? haiz... hope 1 day my prince will give mi 1.. haha... so envy of her lo...she is 19, she wif her bf for abt 4 yrs le, marry on 2009.... envyenvyenvy... hahha....
den aft tt , i go je to meet fl , lyc n gt to noe 2 more friends from lyc... opps... name? hahaha.. nvm... hahah.... they had kobayashi... aft tt, we went up to watch ppl ice skatin... den i nt feelin well n tired so i head hm first.... hahah.... tts wad happen yst....
den today i wake up @ 11... have a heavy lunch wif chocolate n rice... all tnx to my kor n mei... hahaha.... den did some revision on MPS theory.... nw still doin... ahha... den hav dinner... so bloated.... den i weigh myself.. realise tt it passed 50 kg... omg... i gained 6 kg... siao le la... mus go on diet le... if nt i will become pig le.... hahah.... i wan back at least 47 kg la... wanna cry le la.... save mi from becomin a obese.... save mi... hahaha....hmmm... gt to mug le... cu end here!
i still miss my last
romance ;
Thursday, September 21, 2006
1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you ha! ve to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
i still miss my last
romance ;
last nite i gt a dream of happiness, horrible n terrible .. haha happiness- i n 'som1' bein together ... so sweet...xin fu de lo... terrible- den i n fl on bus , we saw old couple 'enjoyin themselves' in the bus.. horrible- all of a sudden there is bomb threw in by ppl from other buses .. all women go to the front of the bus.. guys stayin at the back throwin bombs out... like playin water bombs...so weird... i wake up wif fear.. don noe y?? so scary lo..
today nt feelin very well.. think mr fever visitin mi... sianz... feel terrible... jus nw hav a close chat wif hui ying... i told her abt the 'som1' i fall for.. den she ask mi whether tt guy love mi oso but unnoticed... hw i noe? haha... she ask mi if he do, den will i accept? i say no... coz i think its better to b friends... she ask mi y? i didnt reply... haha... my reason is tt i m scared of gtin hurt again... tt feelin is terrible... nw facin him i think i will feel terrible still... haha...
told fl i nt goin for the bbq... coz i gt work on tt day n i don noe hw to go... haha... i realise tt i had already treats him as a xi guan.. haha.. hope will change.. hhaaa... i don wan to gt hurt emotionally again.. haha...
m i really fallin 4 tt 'som1'?? haiz... hope nt...don treat mi so gd le can?... but wad alvin told mi yst is quite true leh... i think i had forgotten abt tt 'him'...hav i?but yst i n long de conversation still contain tt 'him' leh... feel terrible tt moment...he really forgtten abt mi?... no regret?.... so shack.. haha... but i confirm 'som1' nver fall 4 mi de lo... hhaah..... i so nan kan... hahha... siao ar ... haha...my heart is entangled ... haha..
to seasons when is our aniversary? u all discuss le den tag mi... den on tt day we all go celebrate a memorable 5th yr aniversary.... haha..
tml maxi bday .. bought a 'ink' bag 4 her.. so nice sia... hope she like it.. i think she will.. coz i like it.. haha...goin sakea tml to celebrate her bday.. haha... end here.
i still miss my last
romance ;
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
yst mq n i talked abt seasons... den notice tad seasons is havin its 5th yr aniversary.. HURRAY!!! hahah... unlike wad i said in the past tt seasons will nt last longer den 3 yrs.. haha... nw seasons r the strongest sista ... haha.. share woes n happiness... it is stronger than a BGR... haha... i hope so... hahah...
i hope i can a everlastin de r/s .. hahha.. y? bcoz i find tt seekin n searchin for some1 u love n in return he love u is a tough task... haha... don have an quan gan... hahhaa...dont u all agree?? hope my wishes will come true... haha....
yst i watch mq de blog tt indicate the SHE de video... they tok abt if 1 day any1 of them die , den 1 review back their memories , hw they will feel? SHE cried... thinkin back, seasons share their happiness more den their woes.. y?? y we rarely share woes? haha... but happy is the power of life ma.. hahaha...mayb seasons shld do something memorable in this 5th yr aniversary!! hahaha.. c hw lo!!
everybody will leave this world 1 day... y dont we live our life to the fullest? let ur beloved noe u love them, don make them sad..tell ur secret admire u love them..don regret... accomplished ur task quick n fast, there is no more den 100 yrs 4 u... study hard n play hard... these r the oni reasons 4 human to exist in the world.. don u agree? if nt , wad is the reasons of havin human bein in earth? haha...this world is a planet of love n love... nth else... hahaa...
ltr goin meet mq for waffle den head to sch... at 6, meetin fl n yl at imm... st mayb joinin... hahha.. c u ppl..love u ppl.. end here
saturday 16/9... went to party world wif jing, min n fl... we enjoy alot....there de price oso rather cheap compare to kbox.. haah...the fruits n drinks r made of gold oni ... hhaha... but don noe y my mood is down.. my energy oso depleted to 0.01%... hehee... den went to shop n save to shop 4 item 4 the steamboat fiesta... ghahhaaa... den head to fl's hse for the prep .... den eat lo... hahaa... fl is the chicken n prawns cooker , jing is the tofu n saussage cooker(issit?)... min is the eater( issit?) n i m the pork cooker.. hahaha... all of us eat until so full lo.. hahaaa....den play majiong n ton until 6 am plus den slp .. hahaha...
sunday 17/9... fl de mom say i look thinner le.. but i weigh n it shows i gain 4 kg leh... yyy??? ahah... wake up ay ard 8 plus ba... i gt 12 missed call.. wow.. den gt scoldin from mummy bcoz she worry abt mi.. hhehee.. feel bad... den i hong mummy when i reached hm.. hhahaaa... den hav dinner at ard 6.30 pm... slp at ard 7 pm ...
monday 18/9... today no sch.. yeah... wake up at ard 10 am.. hahaha.. wow. i slp 4 abt 15 hrs leh.. hahahaa... my energy level up to 50% le.. yeah.. hahhaaa.... finally.. hahhhaa....ltr goin to mug le..sw jia you !! hahaa...
some times u wont noe u have actually fall in love wif someone u treat as friend.... another times u wont noe u have actually forget abt ur once loved....
have i forget abt him? i can say i hav when im nt alone.... sometimes i tend to have a double look at the place we once go n feel like cryin... hope to c him appear at my sight.. but never once he appeared... thinkin back , we tend to saw eachother when we waitin for buses to sch... isit tad our yuan fen have end??? hahhaa.... no time to think abt all these no endin de feelin... alvin told mi tad i n him de yuan fen has ened, he no more love mi n he nt ready for r/s but can i choose nt to believe in it? future? no 1 will noe hw n wad will happen... so if i n him gt yuan fen den say lo... miss all those old days... hope my memory can b erased!? hope this r/s never starts?! end here
i still miss my last
romance ;
Saturday, September 16, 2006
wad i did today? i stayed 12 hrs @ somerset.. hahaaaaaah... the first 3 hrs havin lesson... den next 1 hr eatin kfc wif mt ftc friends.. den next 3 hrs meetin yc hangin ard at herrens n taka to wait for jing... den last 5 hrs , finally meet jing n watch movie... wated the little men... haaha
so tired... nw havin conference wif seasons.... heheheheheheh.... 1st time sia.. so funny...
today gt a mixture feelin of sad n happy...hahha....
btw i find tad i have really forgotten abt him le.... shld i b happy? but i find tad i fall 4 som1 i shldnt love... shld i b sad? hahahahah.... end here..
i still miss my last
romance ;
Thursday, September 14, 2006
love like u never gt hurt b4 live like its last day of ur life work like u so wantin the pay treasure like its ur beloved
don u find wad i mention r familiar? its quoted from jin sanshun(i edited abit)... haha... so meaningful...haha....tad is how it shld b to enjoy life in this world...
wad i did today? i study, schoolin, doin hw n don noe le... jus finished doin my hw.. so tired... ahha... nowaday so busy n tired... my energy left 0.5 % oni sia... shack... i oso find tad at sch i look so restless so quiet.... like isolatin myself from all my friends.. feel bad.. haha.. but no mood sia.. hahaa...
oya... bbq thingy may b holdin on 30th... don noe they can make it ma.. haha... hope all can make it lo... hahaa...
Oooo.. nw my brain so blank sia... no mood to think abt anything.. no mood to think abt him... i think this is wad he thinkin b4 the break ba... haha... so wantin to ask him whether he ever regret abt this break.. hahaa... evil smile... haha... so tired...
tml havin lesson in the morning.. sianz.. tired ... mayb buyin bf to my class to wake myself up... den meetin mq n fl at raffles... omg... i cant tahan le la... thinkin whether to meet seasons on sat!! haha... friday den think den... haha... end here=)
i still miss my last
romance ;
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
I've been tagged by linlin, mq,jing n fl! 7 weird facts/habits/things about me: 1)sing in public when i feelin down= lousy vocal 2) i fall in love very easily when im single= hard to let go 3) eatin is great= fat 4) thinkin thinkin n thinkin 2 much= negative 5)take zi lian pic= nt nice de lo 6) smile is the mission of my life= tend to gt tired easily 7) short term memory= naggy
7 lucky people to do this:1) lijing2) fl 3) Shu Ting4) Mei Qi5) Yi Lin6) jk 7) mi
today i find out tad i grew fatter ... i grew 4 kg sia... sob... mus watched my diet sia... mus jian fei... haha... ppl stop mi from eatin 2 much le leh... today de lesson ok lo... as usual .. im tired.. heng ar.. still maintain 1 % of energy... haha
wad is love? love= tiring... don u ppl agree? mayb i shldnt go into any r/s le... haha... jus watched jin sanshun.... mayb wad henry say is rit.... i shldnt hold back the past like a clock... i shld look 4ward...haha... mayb i should forget abt him.. take our past as part of my life... haha... but i so wantin to noe whether in his heart there is already a special place for mi.. haha... have he forgotten abt mi? will he forget abt mi? wad i can say is tad i have forgotten abt him but in my heart he stand a special position... hope he will find his happiness... i will oso jia you de...hope tad yrs ltr...i n him can b friend.. a special friend... friend tad still care abt eachother well being.... but i don think he will wan this.. haha... but i will hope tad i will b his angel guardian who look after him n watches he n his bride livin happily n listenin to his heartbeat...
havin negative thoughts.. never man... its the most tirin task... haha.. i never wan to have any negative thoughts le lo... haha... end here.. smile!!
i still miss my last
romance ;
Monday, September 11, 2006
report:my energy left 1%.... miss mi? haha.. recently i finally gt some time to take a breathe...so shiok... haha... i so busy sia... ahaha.. i finally feel the busy-ness.. haha...so shiok n tirin... haha...
misses ljj... haha.... miss him as friend oni la.. haha.. coz i think i can guess wad his ans to my qns le ba... haha... if im wrong wif my guessin den mus tell mi o... hahaa...
miss all my friends n sistas... haha.... miss jvs life...miss xnp life... miss myself.... haha...
i declare to b single till i confirm my feelin n forget abt ljj...
i promise to stop bloggin when i go into another r/s... coz bloggin reflects my negative n my real life is reflectin my positive.. haha.. weirdo rit.... haha...
hmm... so sianz... haha... singlehood is nth... attached is nth.. bein ur ownself is the most important...so i wan to b myself n nt live for others... hhahaha...
i love u ppl... end here..
i still miss my last
romance ;
Sunday, September 10, 2006
o hi.. its mi ... i MIA 4 a week le wor.. haha.... how? i jus find out tad i still love the old jj... i tryin to give up ... at the very same moment i find tad i oso fall in love wif yc ... he so comical de sia.. always make mi laugh.. haha... but my friends say he already gt some1 in his heart le.. hahaaa... no matter wad i n him better b friend .. haha...
i m weirdo... i fall in love very easily but its hard 4 mi to pull myself out... hhaaa... but i confirm 1 thingy.. i still love jj more but nw i can oni love him as a friend ... both of us don love the person we r nw... hahaa...
i m sick ... ill... haiz
jus heard from tyan tad brandon died on thur due to depression.... sob... silence 4 5 min... end here..
i still miss my last
romance ;
Thursday, September 07, 2006
report: my energy left 2%..... i m so tired... tired in mentally, physically n emotionally....
today spent the first half of my day in sch n the other half wif my friends n family.... so tired... can som1 give mi a shoulder to lean on? hhaha...
jus nw at 7 i watched the show ' hai de er zi' ... when xiang hai wana break wif qian yun , i start to think abt him again... haha.. stupid sia... wad qian yun said is so rit sia.. y xiang hai choose to escape from reality ? if he don willin to give u happiness , cant give u happiness , don willin to contribute, don love u ... give him up den.... haha... but the reality is so cruel lo... it is easy to say but i cant do it... i force myself to give him up but i failed... sob... i really try to give up but i still love him.... m i? is bein wif mi really causin so much miserable? wad i did?
i think the song ' hai shi han ai ni ' by sweety which oso the song of my blog describe my feelin lo...
ya.. i already list my piriorities the way it should b... my love nt the 1st le.... my 1st piriority is studies den family den love... can? happy? BUT I M NT HAPPY @ ALL....
haah.. y m i f0rcin myself to b tad happy infront of every1? im so tired... im drained... all i wan is only tad all my friends is happy... m i wrong?
yayaa.. all negative thoughts again... my negative thoughts evolve when i feel drained up n gt no contribution.... wad i wan in life is so SIMPLE but y cant i gt ? all i wan is all my friends is happy, i passed my ACCA, i gt my lover to support mi, a peace family n a life tad is colourful.... but nw my love = 0 ..n it is all tnx to mi... tnx to wad i have done in the past.... i hate myself to the brim....
i lost who i m... so who m i nw? i hope my 2% of energy can last.... i jus feel like leavin everything aside .. aha.... but i cant...
pisces = fantasies n think alot.... its nt my fault ... i cant chose it but accept it.... i miss the old mi... m i turning back to the old sw o the new evolvin 1?
end here...
i still miss my last
romance ;
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
nw my energy left 4%... hope it can last until i restore all my energy... today de lesson still ok lo... at least he able to teach wad r suppose to cover today... haha.... my sentimental emotion visited mi... shall i write some sentimental entry next....
wad is LOVE??? Y guys always say tad girls r hard to understand? but the fact is tad the guys r the 1 who r thinkin too much ... guys r the 1 who r hard to understand lo... wad girls wan is only tad an quan gan ... its oni tad simple lo... u don need to b wif ur gf everyday.. don nd to sms her everyday lo...they oni wan to noe tad they still in ur heart oni ma... guys r so hard to understand lo... they keep everything to themselves sometime... n don willin to share their thoughts wif their gf... HOW CAN THIS SUSTAIN A R/S?? cant both parties b more mature n handle r/s well? love is nt 4 puppy lo... its a feel tad may hurt 1 parties de lo...
haha... once again im so tired lo... but i still miss him ... sad sia... y r my determination so strong de lo.... y m i thinkin abt we still gt hope de lo... although alvin told mi wad will b goin on to us le but i don willin to accept wad he said... i wan to believe in myself... i wan a chance... so tired... tired in mentally n physically... i think i will fall down soon... i nd him , i wan him but he no more wan mi... haha...
end here.. =>
i still miss my last
romance ;
Monday, September 04, 2006
basically wake up early n go sch as usual.... so sianz... so lifeless de lo... den the new trch-mrs ang nt bad lo...hahahaa... i think i will enjoy her teachin.. hahaa... aft sch i went to mq hse... i don feel like goin hm ... i hate bein alone... den so i did my assignment @ mq hse... muackz... tnx mq.. hhaa... den daddy called n wanna mi help him buy something... so i leave mq hse @ ard 4 lo... shackz... my energy left oni 15% .. haha... den when i aboardin 242 hm... i abt to fall down... but heng i didnt fall.... den when i open my door... yong cai called n say he very sian n wanna treat mi the dinner which he owe mi de... ahah... den i go meet him lo... my energy left 10% ... den we stay at library for hrs... he revisin his exam ma... den i try to gain more energy lo... but didnt gain much.... we ate at pizza place... the food there nt bad lo...den he send mi hm under rainy weather.. tnx lo.. haha... so full nw but my energy oni left 5 % nw... hope can tahan.... btw... tnx yc for bein such a great friend who bring mi lots of laughter... but next time i mus stave 3 days den can meet u lo... hahha...
end here..
i still miss my last
romance ;
Sunday, September 03, 2006
today i went sch 4 7 hrs.... so tired..... den dismiss @ 5pm... shack sia.... hahahaa.... den take 174 wif angelyne.... den reach jp den we go watch the snakes in a plane.... its so alot er xin... abit bian tai... alot more scary... i will like to recommand u ppl to watch lo.. its so nice lo..... hahaha.... PS: GUYS MUST BEWARE OF THE BOWL WHEN URINATION ... BEWARE OF SNAKES IN THE BOWL....
today wad have i done? wake up at 9 plus 10 den use comp till 12 plus den mummy bought hm mac de big breakfast 4 mi to eat... love mummy.... den study abit... but still cannot store much memory in my RAM... hahaa...den meet weiting n mq at ard 4... miss mq late again.. hhaa.. den we go orchard ... den eat, walk n shop... hhaa... long time never c wt... so miss her.. haha...she say i gettin prettier.. hahaa... don noe real or nt.. haha....
so sianz n tired lo.. tml goin back sch for revision lesson 4 MPNS... haha... stress sia...tml 7 hrs at sch sia... sianz... haha... luckily angelyne accompany mi.. tnx gal... haha... end here...
i still miss my last
romance ;
Friday, September 01, 2006
hmmm.. wad to blog today?today i overslept but still can make it for classes... so luckily blessed.. hhaa... the lecturer nicholas r so s lo... i don like his teachin style but no choice.. i think i better do some own sudies .. if nt surely will fail under his guidance ... haha...
i so tired lo.. nt enough slp n stress everywhere.. sianz... haha... people tend to change at the stage when they graduate from secondary.... this is quite true... their direction n life r bein shaken... they will give up thingy tad they find it worthless ... but y mus people give up? as for mi, my determination is tad strong tad i don even noe how to control it... i hate this but tads me... for instance, i love accountancy n so i choose account n not other courses... i love him so i don willin to give up... haha... i m damely tired but still my determination make mi more tired... i cant breathe... y thing changes so randomly ? cant it change more slowly n peacefully? i don like the way i present myself .. i don like the stranger feelin... every time i wanna throw away all negative thoughts.. i feel loney.. haha.. y i wan have negative thoughts in the first place? its meanly becoz i find myself bein left out n wanna ppl or that particular person to notice mi... but i was wrong to present it this manner...
this way of attractin attention tend to make mi losin my love n addin more miserable in life... ya, i regreted on doin such a foolish thing ... n now i cant do anything but to forget abt my love..although i m som1 who never give up too easily de...
i don wan to have any negative thoughts again n so i turning myself back track to who i really was... n nw i was finally who i m..u noe wad, wad we saw on tv is nt really wad real life is...hhaa...
happy always .. suwen is back on the track of positive..
