Thursday, August 24, 2006
today is the day i think the most... haha... i miss him ... hahaha.. stupid mi rit? haha... i tot i had fogotten abt him but im wrong.. dame wrong... i still miss him very much but on the other hand, i hate him oso... hahaha... confusin rit? hahaha...i miss his heartbeat!!
this morning i , st,fl,sg n yl go complex... i drank lots of chlorine water.. hhahaa... shack!! long time never swim le so i forgotten how to swim... den ard 12 , long arrived n joined us... haha..
den we all go 400+ eat lo.. hhaha... now we all at fl hse...
don noe y.. i feel sad... hahha... mayb due to him ba... no mood to study.. haha...
i realise something... he already part of my life le... how? how can i pluck him out of my life??
since 13 aug, my day is so meaningless... no motivation to carry on my life.. shack!!
i so tired of livin in this world le... i no more want to go into r/s le... i lost my heart totally... haha.. i noe tad is stupid but i cant do anything ma... don worry.. i wont suicide de la..tad is nt my style.. i jus find no target in life le... wad i noe is tad miss him n love him is a torture to him... nt only so, i m oso sufferin.... in the very 1st place.. i shldnt go into this r/s.. hahah...so i let go of him ... but i damely sad... i don noe y.. i don feel like cryin..i cant cry... haha...
wad true love really is? is it sufferin n unable/never b together 1314? hahha...
how i hope i can love him less but i fall into it le... haha...sad.. haha..will i n him b together again? stupid qns indeed...the ans is never rit?... hahha...
m i really nt a gd gf? m i really very fan? m i a loner? i don noe... no 1 can tell mi.. haha.. i jus noe tad i tend to contributed 2 much in r/s.. haha.. tads terrible..
meaningless life + stress in studies+ no more lookin toward love = suwen
haha... hope he will happy n xinfu...
end here!
i still miss my last
romance ;